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I Miss The Library

The kids and I usually take out 15-20 books a week from our small local library. Since it still hasn’t re-opened we are going nuts without having new books to read! The school has a couple of sites set up for all the students to read online but it’s not the same as holding and smelling a real book. It may re-open in August. Fingers crossed!

I also found out that our librarian has retired and oh man! Are we going to miss her!! She is the most amazing person! Norma has lived in the area all her life and is a well known and much loved member of the community. She loves children and is always ready for an impromptu game of anything! She somehow managed to always put together a summer reading program for the community every year and plans out the games and crafts for about 40 kids each day. She’s just such a wonderful person. She also has cerebral palsy and another job she goes to everyday after the library closed each day. I don’t know how she managed to find the time!

So our days have been filled with tons of outdoor play and even some time with a couple of friends. I have allowed some extra screen time for the time being since that’s how we have to read our books now. It’s so hard on the eyes and my eyes hurt so bad by the time bed time rolls around. Which would be now but I’ve been attempting to catch up with my reading on here for so long now. I wish I could just grab my laptop and head to the lake, let the kids play in the water while I work on my blog sitting on the warm sand. But the sun glaring off the screen would drive me nuts and I get called to the water too often to actually sit on the sand. LOL the dream is there.

But…I managed to do some catch up this evening and there’s a storm rolling through. Power was out for 3 hours already today and so I think I’ll wrap this up just in case.

I hope everyone is well!

-Ang

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When you feel like you’re letting everyone down

Mothers have a lot on their plates. It’s hard to remember that I can’t possibly do it all! From school work and homework to dance and jui jitsu, from housework to my paid job. Most days I’m barely getting through each day because I just don’t have the energy. So when there’s a few days that I’m not around to do the basic tidy ups so I can keep my head above water I really feel like I’m drowning.

My three kids and husband stay home during the day on weekends while I’m away working and I’m usually home just before midnight. Wake up early with the kids and get stuff prepared for the day. After I make them lunch I get my things ready so I can head off for work again.

Monday’s I try to keep open for my day to rest (and by rest I mean catch up on all the laundry, clean the one neglected bathroom that all 5 of us share, sweep and mop all the floors, change all the bedding etc).

Tuesdays I finish up what I couldn’t get done the day before and take the kids to their dance classes. Supper is super late that day so clean up and homework takes us until past bed time.

Wednesdays are for library with my youngest and I usually have time for one load of laundry (potty tracing him and so we have a lot of clothes during the week and if I don’t wash them he has to go naked 🤣)

Thursdays I have set aside for my baking day which means any orders I get throughout the week gets tackled this day. Nothing else gets done.

Fridays are packed with games, reading with the kids, playing, and then a quick tidy up before the weekend hurricane hits 😂

I’m usually gone all weekend for work and nothing gets done. Does anyone else feel this struggle? I admit that since I’ve been working super hard on my perfectionism it is easier because I am able to go to bed knowing there is toys that haven’t been put away, dishes that might still be sitting in the sink or that I forgot a piece of trash in the car. How can we balance everything that needs to be done with the things we want to do for fun or for ourselves? My planner has decreased my anxiety incredibly but I have to be extra careful not to overfill it because then it defeats the purpose.

Anyway, there’s so much going on in this mind of mine that nothing I say will make sense.

-Ang