Will I Ever Be Better?

My first counselling appointment with my current “K” was now 4 years ago. She told me right in that first appointment that I have a lot issues to work through and that it will probably take many years. I have a lot of trauma work to do but since she doesn’t specialize in trauma work I feel like I’m not getting anywhere. I know I have advanced but certainly not as much as I feel I could have. And in all those years we haven’t even touched on the very concern I had when she asked me why I was there.

It’s so frustrating!

Sometimes I wish I lived in a city so that I could change counselors and get someone I feel can better help me. Prior to “K” I had been with someone based out of Saskatoon who did phone appointments (which was why I had chose them to begin with) but they were $100 per 60 minute session. I used up all my savings in less than a month but she helped me advance a little with my grief work.

I guess I’ll have to start making calls after the kids get back to school. Maybe I can use the pandemic to my benefit with some free phone appointments.

Or maybe I just need a nap 😀 Quiet time to do some journaling would be beneficial…maybe next week.

-Ang