A String Of Thoughts

Today was a good day.

Got up on time and wasn’t rushed getting the kids off to school. Had a nice relaxing 2 hours to get myself ready for work. Arrived to the city with enough time to grab a delicious coffee before heading in. Hit the floor one whole minute early and stayed busy all day. Only had one incident where the cops were called, one threat made to someone who was NOT me, and made it out alive only 10 minutes late.

Got to see my kids before they went to bed, help them finish their homework, read a story to my daughter and give them lots of hugs.

I think I’m going to write my story, or rather begin to write my story. I feel I owe it to my children to hear about who I am other than just their mom. My struggles and secrets, my thoughts and feelings reflecting back and life after they joined us.

I didn’t know my mom the way I wish I could now. She was my mom. She was the daughter of John and Katherine Naylor. When I found out my dad was not my biological dad, it was a real slam to the head (a harder blow than he had ever gave me) and that’s when my mom’s story began for me. That’s when I realized that I didn’t know at all. She never talked about her life growing up, her secrets, her first crush, her first job, how she felt when she first moved out of the house… I want my kids to have this story of mine in case, one day, they’re feeling like no one can relate, no one cares, no one gets them. If the day comes and I’m unable to tell them with my own voice, they can read it. My old diaries will be burned HAHA, they don’t need to read those.

I wish I had something of my mom left besides a handful of photos taken in the last 9 months of her life, a broken coffee cup too small to enjoy and memories that will soon fade.

But…it really was a good day.

I found out that a friend of mine was rushed to Saskatoon by ambulance yesterday. She couldn’t breathe & her throat was swollen up like a balloon. Her sister was in the store today with an update that she is feeling a little better and it was some kind of bacterial infection but wasn’t Covid and she would contact us with anymore updates. It must be so scary for her.

Take care and stay safe friends!