Pineapple Apple Pen

I opened the container with a leftover chicken breast and smelled it because I couldn’t remember when we had chicken. It didn’t smell bad so I licked it.

Says a worn out, busy Mom wearing pajamas at 4:45 pm

I’m taking a break from this crazy afternoon. The title has nothing to do with what I’m writing but the song happens to be stuck in my head 😉

My work schedule this weekend was a little draining. Saturday I worked until 10:40 pm, getting home at 11:50 pm and then after I got my breakfast and lunch ready for the morning it was a little after 1 am by the time I got to bed. My alarm went off at 4:40 and within minutes I could smell the coffee being brewed (what would I do without a timer on the coffee pot??) Of course, I couldn’t drag my butt out of that nice warm, comfy bed for almost another hour which happens a lot haha! By 6:20 I was on the highway heading for work and I’m a little disappointed that I miss the sunrise these days due to the sun going to bed earlier than I do so it can wake up without hitting the snooze button for an hour LOL!

It was still a beautiful drive though 🙂

After a busy morning of working my baking job (more of an enjoyable hobby because it’s a lot of work for the little one gets paid) I realized my kitchen looked like it exploded and the kids would be home soon. When the kids get home, there’s no time for cleaning until after supper so it needed to get done fast! By the time I was caught up I realized just how exhausted I was so I thought I better take a time out and read some of the blogs I’m following. I can fall behind on the reading so quickly.

I really enjoyed the posts I’ve read today and I appreciate that those that I follow seem to be totally true to themselves. I don’t like looking at or reading about how perfect someone’s life is, I like the real deal, the raw truth of the mess that we all live in and the hard lessons we learn lol. For example, the fact that I opened the container with a leftover chicken breast and smelled it because I couldn’t remember when we had chicken. It didn’t smell bad so I licked it. Why would someone do that? Lick a chicken breast? I didn’t get sick so I made chicken salad for lunch 😀 Embarrassing example #2: While down at the creek the other night my now year old had to pee. He has never peed outside before because it’s hard to explain why boys can and girls can’t just go whenever or wherever they want. So how does a mom teach her little boy to pee standing up (another feat he has yet to master) outside for the first time? It was a disaster. I got peed on…lots, and so did he LOL. It’s a learning curve this thing called life.

Anyway, as I was saying. The posts I’ve been reading today have been the type that make you really think about life, what you want, where you want to go, who you would bring with you, what will happen in the next chapter of the big story. I love it when the wheels start turning after catching up with everyone I follow and I especially love it when the words I read really resonate with me and stick in my head for hours or days. I’ve come to learn that these are the things I need to really pay attention to, call them signs if you will, but they feel more like hugs or sometimes slaps to be completely honest. I’m the type of person that “accepts” things they way they are and I adapt to them and adjust so I blend in with my surroundings. I’m not saying I’m living a lie, though it may sound that way. If you don’t know who you are then you can’t be the full you!

My therapy has been slow, fighting to overcome many childhood issues. I have been waking up to so much in the past 5 years and even more in the last 3 or so. I feel a change coming. A big change. A loud change. A powerful change. A peaceful change. I can feel myself screaming from within, calling to me. It’s like the wifi is out and I can’t send the map location so I have to listen extra carefully to the directions being called out. I get distracted easy so I wander away and have to start over because I couldn’t remember what the last instructions were. Do I turn left at the Point Of Realization? Or was I supposed to go right at The Big Light Up Sign back there about 2 years ago that I went by because that butterfly was such a pretty shade of blue? It’s a process.

Thank you all for sticking with me and now that I’m at the end, my coffee is cold and the water is boiling for the spaghetti, and I’m pretty sure non of it made much sense. If nothing else, feel free to laugh at the mess that my thoughts become while sitting quietly. It’s ok because I do 😀

Pineapple photo by https://www.pexels.com/@jose-grjalva-1490120

Enjoy the song! https://youtu.be/Ct6BUPvE2sM